Huh!?

What was the first thing I saw when I stepped into my room just now? I've got a new door latch. Was like "huh? when did they sneak into my room? :O"

But I think, I prefer they change the whole door. The door looks so lame compared with the furniture inside lor. Anyway, not much of my business for the time being ~~.

Reading dad's email, and this is the first line he wrote: "Thank you my dear daughter, the last email you sent has been the fastest responsive email you've ever replied to our emails uptill now :)".

Me: *cow face*!

Huhu dad! There have also been times when you never replied my email until few days later yah? But as some of you may know, dad's emails has always been a source of good entertainment :))

The java to c++ lecture today was super sleepy. I kept falling asleep for nearly the whole 2 hours. After that went for a drink with Ivan, had a nice vanilla ice blend at that Italian coffee shop near Medicine (can't recall the name?). Haha it tasted even nicer when it's his treat. Woo hoo next time should ask him out for drink more often =p~.

Btw the result for teaching feedback for last sem is out. Take a look here. Seems like we had a very good team for 3212 :D, most of those got very good feedbacks ^o^. How I wish I've got the same score for my CAP T_T.

After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises,

And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,

And you learn to build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn...
That even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So you plant your garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure...

That you really are strong

And you really do have worth...

And you learn and learn...

With every good-bye you learn.

Final year students _ the hardest-working creatures

So that's always been your belief? So it has been stuck to your mind that university students in their final year are those geeks with thick glasses and never leave their research lab for even a minute?

Okie, so that's what one of my juniors believe too. And when I told her that the truth is quite different, as I myself tend to go out more and more in year 3 and year 4 compared to year 1 or 2; she looked at me like an alien, with a doubtful eye.

So you've always thought that for us, final year students, we'd not care about anything else except our projects? And we'd sacrifice anything to save time for projects?

I'd better have taken you to the CASE Conference brief meeting today at Alumni House. Out of around 15 student helpers (maybe less?), only 2 of them are year 2 students. The rest? All year 4!

Oh well, are they there for the conference itself? No man! They are there to earn $$$, and I'm proud (coz' no shame) to announce that I'm one among the rest. Hahah ~~

Gonna be super busy starting tomorrow onwards, that is not to mention I'm gonna have 2 midterms next week.

Anyway, apology and deepest sympathy to the "project leader" who has to deal with some troubles bcoz' of us leaving early today T_T.

Breakthrough!

Woo hoo, at last, I've got a breakthrough with my HYP.

Been stuck for so long bcoz' of the stoopig Globus Toolkit 3.2, a web service container. After endless efforts to persuade prof to migrate to GT4, with some failures in the first place, I finally managed to grab a machine which according to prof is now used for nothing, hence I can do anything I want.

And? After some hopeless configuration, my client now can run as stable as if nothing ever goes wrong!!!! Hix hix so touched so touched. Thank you GT4 T_T!!!

So happy, in a good mood today ^_^

Recess week?

It has another name, called term break! What's the purpose of term break? Ahh, you say, the name tells it all, for students to relax what? So that you can travel here and there, have some fun, and escape from the boring studying life.

Hmmph, I tell you, don't be deceived that easily. Have a peep at one of SOC labs, you'll have no idea what week it is.

As full as normal, with crazy ppl rushing for projects! And some non-crazy ones? Writing blog, as I am doing :">. Not that I'm lazy k? Just coz' too sleepy, must find something else to do :">

Yesterday night had a very relaxing time chit chatting with fren :). Really wish we could have had more time to talk about all those things. Not crappy at all you know? If I could, I would want to share more and more with you about all those revolving your life. Anyway, not much time left.

Really feel v much peaceful after a stormy week :D. Thank you for your understanding :). Feel like I'm all up again for plans ahead. Will keep going till the end.

So what's the rest of the news? Getting cough again, this is the longest coughing period I've ever had. Hopefully will not lose voice once more, or else Frank will have no other choice but to pass me back the syrup again, which I don't want either!

An apology

If someone happens to read smt offensive on my blog, plzz ignore it :D. I don't mean what I might have written, and things in the past, I don't at all feel it now :D

I might have done smt stupid, but be assured, if I'm talking to you, I'm talking to you as a real fren ;)

So don't be angry or think badly k? Welcome back as my fren :)

Graduation tour?

Frank is asking me to accompany him for his trip to VN. Waww then I wouldn't have many days at home after I go back, coz' it's gonna be a long trip along VN.

Anyone of you wanna join me? But afraid all of you would be busy looking for job by then :'(. But ... but ... it would be quite weird if I go alone with two of them! Need to find more companies!! So contact me if you feel like it ;)!

hix hix ...

I've found it again!! My watch :'( :'(!!

Bro is funny :p

After scolding me for a while for being stubborn, bro finally gave in and agreed with me. Haha he always tells me off for being childish, but then will agree in the end. Bro is also kiddy :p

But great news!!! He's getting married this summer!! Can't imagine it now. How would he look like in his wedding suit? Never met this fiancee, but I'm sure he would be happy with her ^_^.

Wooo so looking forward to the event. It's been 7 years since we knew each other, and it's also another great story how we've come to be like real siblings :p!

Life is a miracle.

A light of love

Come to think about it, it's not a light of love, it's a bright sky of love shining on me the moment I received the email. A super long one.

I'm having a very bad headache now coz' your email kept me stay up whole night to reconsider about everything. Seriously I've been thinking about each and every words written in that. I kept reading it over and over. Though it's a little bit messy coz' everyone is trying to express one's thoughts, different views, different emotion. But whatever it is, all I felt is the greatest "collective" frenship I've ever received.

I'm very much lucky to have known you all :). Haha and it's a good chance that we speak out all the deepest thoughts about the future and our purpose of life. Plzz share with me when we still can :)

Coming back to daily happenings. Think money is saying bye bye to me T_T. Despite my efforts on trying to save up by not buying stuff, I found another way to expense :-s. But at least I'm just trying to spend as much time with everyone here as possible :"> (trying to console myself :-s)

Yesterday night had a very nice dinner at qua'n Mai. The food is not bad not bad! Think next time, all of us should go there and try. After that? Finally succeedded to catch Casanova. A big recommendation haha, the movie is quite fun and yes, it's another fairy tale :D!

Thank you fren for spending last evening with me. It's real nice to catch up with you after a long time we don't really talk like we used to do. To tell the truth, 2 years ago, you did bring me lots of fun and good memories during my hardship :).

Wish you all the best along your way :)

Just now brought my mp3 player for repair. Goodness next time I'd have to be super careful not to sit on it again, or else will cost another 15$ for me to replace the glass T_T. I'm a big SPOILER!! And I need to save up at least enough to pay my laptop loan to NUS before graduation :-s.

Calling for help again, if anyone got part-time jobs lobang (iz it the word?), plz tell me :">

Glad that the NUROP presentation for I?n and Ha has gone well :p. Hope you 2 like the cards ^_^.

Stay tuned ;)

I'm gonna pen down each and every moment of us until the last day.

So be ready to visit my blog more often, coz' you'd feel too tired to read a whole bunch of crap after a while if you lose track :p.

(hehe, that's called marketing :">)

Late nights out

I've been spending time out a lot these days. Starting since last Saturday, I rarely spent half of a day at home, including sleeping time. Hmm hmm ... Think I'm beginning to abandon my room.

It was freaking hot today. After going to bed at 5.30am in the morning after last night, I found myself waking up at 830am without any reasons, and dun feel like getting to sleep again.

So I ended up sleeping all the way on the train in the early afternoon. Was so blur I got out of the station at Toa Payoh the moment I opened my eyes without realizing I need to go to Ang Mo Kio instead ~~

Luckily I was still able to make it on time for the volunteer program at IMH (Institute of Mental Health) today. Not to my expectation, everyone there is not violent or what, actually most of them just want to keep silent, but the others, they can get on just well with anybody. Got some very cute old men who waved greatly to us when they saw us coming to their ward.

So today they had a Fun Fair for all the residences inside a ward to take part in. Certainly half of them were not responsive enough, but for those who participated, esp. KS, the guy I accompanied, was really spontaneous and enthusiastic. In the end he won the 2nd place, and he was so kind he even shared his choc and sweets for the winning prize with us :D!

Also got to talk to this man called FC, and I totally had no idea at all why he should be there. He appears to be very normal, rather knowledgable just like any men of his middle-age. He knows many things about Vietnam, heh and he's very frenly. Hmm ... if you happen to talk to him, I believe you'd think you're talking to a volunteer inside the ward instead!

I had lots of fun during the time, was so playful I even competed with some of the residences there :">, and okie lor, I din lose all e time k? still got draw! hmmph~~

It's made me see how lucky and happy I am living my life!

Left e place at ard 6pm and rushed to Shu's place. Got quite a big group today, and do you all realize that it's been such a looooooonnnnnnngggggg time that all of us are together? We still have gathering, we still go out a lot, but now and then 1 of us would be missing. The last time I think is Shu, Pig Ha, and my bdays combo celebration :p

Was supposed to go for a karaoke session, but in the end, decided to leave the place after helpless efforts of Shu and mine to reduce the price. It was freaking expensive tonight T_T.

Thanks to that, we had a nice dinner @ Pizza Hut instead. The last time I had pizza hut was exactly 2 months ago, that time I was so full .. This time, had to fight for food haha.

Wanted to get home early & rest coz' din really sleep for 2 days. And guess wat? We got on the bus to the wrong direction!!! Noone realized it until we reached East Coast ~~. So, though intended to get back home @ ard 10.30, I only managed to open my door @ 12.30pm.

Enough for now, I just wanna go to bed~~. ta ta!

Back home @ 3.30am

Had a long time out today. Went with Thao in the evening to collect the stuff her family has sent her. Heh din know it was the same hotel that I used to visit this time last year to collect my stuff also. Still remember I walked from Newton MRT, all the way down across very empty roads that time, which took me ard nearly 1 hour to reach the place :-s. So blur I was then!

After that said goodbye to sis Thao and continued another round of going out :D. But it's a little bit weird going out with a couple hor :p. Esp. in the cinema haha :)), just making me feel colder with the aircon blowing onto my head tiao~~.

Haha just kidding, you guys are looking great together ^o^, and I'm so happy about that ^_^. At least u have someone to look after you in e future, when I can't be there anymore ^_^

Started off the bowling game very smoothly, and I think I was going to win, but finally, I was the worst .... Huhu I am always lousy ~~

Then went for some games b4 the movie started, gosh your hands are super red after that game haha (dun know what's e name eh?). My hands hurt too, but it was so fun :D!

Intended to catch "Casanova", but there was no late show at Marina Square, so ended up watching "Walk the line" instead, which turned out to be quite a wrong choice. The story line is kinda depressing, telling about life of Johny Cash, a rock'n'roll singer in the 50s & 60s. He had a family when he started his career as a singer, but it was then that he also started to fall in love with a girl in the music group going on tour with him. His life began to get messed up when he became more famous, he started to have drugs, women, and he gradually abandoned his family.

He changed a lot over time, his life became more and more depressing and messy; but there's one thing that just kept growing in him, his love for the girl, June Carter. In the end, he left his wife and married her, the one who helped him get back his career, his dreams and his belief.

Okie the story line is not that bad, just that it's about real life, hence super depressing sometimes haha. Still prefer watching fairy tales :">, at least can feel peaceful and merry :p

Everyone made me v touched today ... in only 1 day, many ppl approached to talk to me ... all my best frens, even "the other half" of my best frens :D. At a time, I did really cry inside the lab, which made me feel embarassed, but I just couldn't stop it ...

I'm so blessed to know how I mean to all of you :)! Thank you all, though I'm sorry I'm so stubborn that noone succeeded in persuading me, I still feel I'm v much loved by you :p

Life is kind to me.

Stoopig Sang!

Made me stay up whole night again haha ... He always gets me into this kind of emotion when we happen to be chatting about the past or future. But I'm super touched seeing him so sad about our days after graduation.

The reason why I've been spending more than 1 and a half hours looking thru' all the pix of the last 4 years, and can't help laughing remembering those moments

Pix 1 (April 8th, 2003): it's hard to find such a big group photo when noone is out to be the cameraman. Ky's bday, so many ppl in a small room, had to squiz to eat :p

Pix 2 (May 2nd, 2003): it took me ard 5 mins to be able to press the camera button. If you see how Sang and Ky were laughing, I did CRAWL on the floor too seeing the scene. Super naughty An =))

Pix 3 (May 2nd, 2003): taken on the same day. Look what we did with Sang's hair =)). And that was during the reading week before the final, that we were thinking of all funny stuff to do!

Pix 4 (August 3rd, 2003): another rare group photo when everyone is in :), taken at Spore zoo.

Pix 5 (CNY Eve 2004): Remember remember? The play that we all spent so many white nites to practice, and it turned out to be super duper fun =)). Pay attention to the "girl" in skirt =))

Pix 6 (Dec 22nd, 2004): Ha's 22nd bday, "the cake is mine! the cake is mine" - i shouted :D


Pix 7 (Dec 17th, 2005): we wish you a merry christmas ^_^

So many happy moments we've shared, which are all coming back to my mind now ... Remember that night b4 the MA1505C final, when all of us gathered in my room and watched the penguins funny clip? We laughed so much that my neighbor felt jealous and asked us to lower e volume for her to not feel curious :p.

And these are all the ppl I'll remember for the rest of my life :).

It's 4am now, time to jump on bed :">. Keep smiling, keep shining :)

Graduation

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon

And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We'll remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Super funny Frank =))

Cannot take it to hear his voice today haha. He TOTALLY lost his voice, though he's not coughing like I did last time, it's super funny to hear him whisper. I kept laughing at him, then pretended to whisper back, coz' who knows! ppl going outside the office may think I have a problem talking to myself =))

In the end offered to give him the rest of the big syrup bottle I have left since last time, hopefully can help. Poor thing haha ~~.

In the end we still have some flowers left, just some only. But got profits; so considered to be successful.

The Simulation class today is super boring, and during the recitation hour, I found myself staring at the board, suddenly realized I'm somewhere else for ard 20 mins, with my eyes still open!!! Goodness, losing concentration is real bad.

And then my stomach GROWLED!! It realy did, real loud, and not just once! So embarassing huhu ...

Crazy?

I must have gone mad to give out such an offer ....

But dun noe what to do either ... I hope it wont turn out too bad, praying ... I will not hurt anybody, not anymore [-o<, and I will work towards the best with all I have :)

Got lots of things ahead to do!

Gone with the wind

What I like most about "Gone with the wind" is the last scene in the movie, when Scarlet returned to the beginning place where she started her life journey. If you still all remember, that is the scene of a woman stepping her feet back on her home land, smiled to herself and said: "At last, I'm home. In the end, tomorrow is a brand new day"... The last sentence just goes so well with the title!

She is an out-going type of person, she's brave, strong and she shines with her characters. But no matter how hard she's struggled to adjust herself to new lives, new places, new ppl ..., it turns out that there are just some places of the world she doesn't belong to. Though that is the life she strives for, the simple fact is that it is not made for her.

She can never be a part of it.

Even her loved one can do nothing about it either, and he left her in the end, though he used to love her so much. Just simply bcoz', the world has its own rules that ppl can not always overcome.

But lucky for her, she still always has a place where she can return to, the starting point where she has left off. She has a past to lean on, and a place that is made for her.

That's what I've learnt about "Gone with the wind".

Memories can never be forgotten, no matter how hard you try. It only matters the way you remember them. Everything has many sides to it, so it depends on us which sides we want to look at more. I don't want to forget anything; to me, to be truthful to yourself is the most important thing. I'm glad I've been thru' many kinds of situation; so that in the end, I know how to treasure what I have, rather than to mourn on things I cannot get.

This is the words someone has written, and I really like it:

"The journey goes on. Sometimes I travelled alone. Sometimes there were others who took the wheel... and took my heart. Sometimes when the destination was reached, it wasn't me who arrived... it wasn't me at all. Losing your way on the journey is unfortunate, but losing your reason for the journey is a fate more cruel.

Once you lose yourself you have two choices: find the person you used to be or lose that person completely. Because sometimes we have to step outside the person you've been, and remember the person you are meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are.

As we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things that we think will make our lives better...money, popularity,fame...we ignore what truly matter...the simple things like friendship, family, love...the things we probably already had."

REMEMBER ME THIS WAY :)!

You're absolutely right!!!

The feeling of getting high is super cool. Really can forget for a while what the heck we are up to!

Should I get more beer for occassions like this? hmmm pondering, maybe that's a good idea =)). then need to get some fillets to go with it too.

Conclusion: u dont always need someone else to drink with you, you can just drink alone! that's what's good about it :D !

Conclusion 2: I'm not drunk enough, still can blog haha

痴心绝对

想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱的太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你做任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决

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The first feeling I have after 30 consecutively hours non-sleep, of which 20 hours was spent inside a 16 degree Celcius room, is I'm now totally broken down, mentally + physically. Just realized I haven't got anything, not water nor food, since 3am in the morning. And now? I hate the idea of stuffing anything inside my mouth, coz' that would for sure make me puke.

Working with flowers is nice, but I totally did overwork myself. I'm so blank all I wanna think about is sleep, jump on bed, and never to wake up again. Technically, never to wake up again....

I just wish I could wipe my brain out, wipe wipe wipe, wipe it all over, and begin with a new blank page.

Valentine, supposed to be some day when I'm so happy for all of my frens, has turned out to be a day when everything in me, my thoughts, my feelings, my health, my brain ... runs dry.

Plz refrain from contacting me thru' my phone, I can hear you but you wont be able to hear me.

And plz let me calm myself down first ...

The job begins :-s

Both hands are super tired now after 1 day of wrapping the flowers. Actually I think the roses are a little bit small, I still prefer those roses back there in VN, can get 1 huge rose with a diameter of a small orange for ard 8000 dong (< s$1). Ohh that is the price on these special days, such as Valentine days. Here the cheapest price for a small rose is S$5 :-&. Heh come to think about it, I wonder if girls would prefer a bouquet of 100 roses or giving them the $$$ itself lol!

Back is also aching madly, can any kind soul give me a massage :p?

Still have many words to study for the test tomorrow, but dun noe if I can make it through tonite. The result of staying up for 3 consecutive nites last week has led me to endless zzzz-ing yesterday + today. Really feel like cannot make it out of bed :-&.

But die die must stay up tonight T_T!!!

Somehow Valentine coming reminds me of smt v funny happening 4 years ago ... Good memories never die :D

HYP reload

Not my copyright :p! But I did one little modification lol, so considered as co-operate!! hahah

A good laugh for the day

=))

(With sincere understanding of loading the webpage for low connections, I've decided to not embed the video on my blog. )

Want some fun?

Enough!!! ...

... of emotional stuff on my blog! Time for some bright highlights of the days.

So what are the things that are keeping me busy during this time other than my HYP? Told u last time that I'm v much into $$$ lately right? Yup no doubt about it, I'm all up for $$ now, with the scary sight of 3 more months along the road when I'd be kicked out of NUS; no more scholarship, no more bursaries, and I'm gonna be starved b4 I manage to get a job :-&.

Oh well, it might not be the case if everything goes smoothly for my plan then, but who knows!

So I've gone for some interviews, hmm actually just 1 :">, then registered for V-day flowers sale too, hoping to get some $$ to fill my stomach before I lose more kg. Anyone of you who wants to get some nice flowers for your loved ones on that special day, plzz contact me *drool*. (no discount guaranteed but best flowers are assured to be offered ^_^; if required, I'd fight with other sellers to get those for ya ^_^)

Dad wrote yesterday telling about my neighbor, bro Nam's wedding. It's really a strange feeling thinking about someone so close to you from your very childhood to get married at this moment. Still remember how he often knocked my head when we were v small, then always ran around and played w me. Sometimes he made me cry and when I ran back to mum to tell him off, she always said: "aiyaa your own business, solve it with ur future husband"

Me: *cow face*!!

Everything was so beautiful back then. when I was small, those who were closest to me must have been bro Nam and sis Van, his older sister. Since the 2 families live nextdoor to each other, all best dishes would be shared when there was some ceremony in 1 of the 2 houses. Everytime when it rained heavily and my little house began to be flooded, yes! flooded to the very true meaning - while mum and dad were out to work - sis Van would always come to help protecting me, the girl who was being terribly scared of thunders and the water which was raising so fast to the level of the bed at that time ...

Dad said everyone was very happy at bro Nam's wedding. He's getting married to someone he's known for nearly 20 years, since his primary school time. Woo really admirable. Dad also wrote that his father read this during the wedding: "Today we are all here to celebrate the happiest moment of our 2 children: Tran Thanh Van ..."

He realized the mistake and changed the name "Tran Thanh Van" to "Tran Hoai Nam" right after that. Everyone was in a silence for a moment, and if I were there, I guessed a tear would have been shed .... Sis Van passed away 4 years ago, due to an incurable disease ... I was not at the hospital at that time, but I've heard enough stories about how her mother has broken down, how her bf held her so tight and long after she had stopped breathing, never wanted to let anyone take her away .... I myself cried non-stop for 3 days after her death ...

Sis Van was someone I could never forget, for all the smiles she has brought into my life. I couldn't hear much of her laughters during the last few years of her life; illness had worn her out, but memories about our childhood has never faded ...

So that's why, compared to those whom this life is so cruel to, I believe that being not in pain is already such a treasurable happiness that we sometimes take for granted ...

Really happy for bro Nam now ^_^, and for sis Van and all those closest ones to me who have passed away, I'm sure I need to live on strong and happy, so that memories about them would have more chances to be recalled in this life!

Enough for a long entry, time to get back to my 20 pages of German new words for next week test now :-&. God bless me!

Super sianzzz

:( It's been with me for 3 months, since Nov 9th, and now it's gone :(( :(( :((

Been digging up every centimeter inside my room and still cannot find it again :( :(. Mind is so blur I dun even know when and where I last saw it :((...

Really sad sad :( :(

In deepest memory of something good T_T : My blue watch!

If anyone catches a glimpse of the above property, please inform me. Reward is guaranteed :((

Super duper sianzz now :(

Late night

Another late night again, I should have gone to sleep 2 hours ago, but after having a talk with Shu earlier, I suddenly feel hollow inside ...

I'm having a plan inside my mind, which to me, is the best solution for everyone. But I can't help feeling scared of the time that might pass so fast, how much time do I have left? No matter how much I'm trying to treasure each and every moment, I'm still afraid I might miss out on moments that have so many meanings to me ...

How I wish I could catch them and store inside a box, so that later, I can always take them out and smile, remembering all the sweetest and hardest days ....

I cried while chatting with Shu, I really did, hee silly I am rite? What's waiting ahead?
You would never know how much I wish there were a way for me to stay ....

Sleepless

Suddenly my eyes are so wide open and I dun feel like jumping on bed at all ... Something is getting into my mind I cannot really define, but some kind of a deepening feeling ...

Keep thinking about this girl I know, not a very close fren to me, but somehow I feel like I can clearly read through her mind, what she's thinking, what she's been going through ... For the first time this year (lunar year, so it's been 1 week uptil now :D), I'm feeling smt sinking inside ... Wonder how would I struggle if I were in her shoes ... would I have enough strength? would I have enough hope and belief? How would I stand strong?

So I made a walk during the night just now at the stadium, and to my surprise, when I came back home, it had been 1 and a half hour passing by ... Was so deep in thoughts I din realize time flied so fast. Now legs are very tired too.

But after a cloudy day, the sky was very clear tonight. If you ever look up, you'll catch a lot of stars, bright ones! and u can even watch the half-full moon setting freaking early at 11.30pm, the time when it is supposed to rise. 1 more week and it would be full moon again!

Someone asked me again if I ever think of going back ... to be more accurate, getting back ... Wonder how and what I am to tell that someone ... Life has been changing!

Sunnie and windie

That's how the weather is like these days. Really love the wind so much ^_^

Spent some time with Shu sitting at the stadium and tok cok in the evening after a session of beer and bbq pork. Find the beer quite light hmm, got no effect on me haha. Ey dun get the wrong idea, normally I never drink k? but it doesnt mean I cannot drink, actually think i dun get drunk easily at all, esp. when I'm in the right mode of mind. There are quite a lot of stars tonight, and it's v cool with the wind playing around ...

Think I'm getting fat again!!! Keep eating and eating, but was late for the dessert with Thao after accompanying Shu so ended up got nothing left to eat T_T. Pretended to be nice and asked for nothing else, but actually I was still full of beer then :P

Today my 2261 group got a get-together by pure chance. Was so surprised to see Junyang and Myo waving to me when I was going for the survey session. Got 15$ for 20 mins filling in a form, cool huh? Lately I feel like I'm v much $$$-addicted. Suddenly want to earn as much money as I can ... heh ... whereas previously finance is not really my concern. Anyone got any chances to earn money? tell me tell me!!!

So many clouds still dont wanna rain!?

It's been cloudy all day, which raised a hope in me that it would mark the end of the raining season with a really heavy one. But NO! all clouds just scatterred on the sky whole day, doing a good job of lazing around and dun wanna transform into water drops to fall down. *Sigh sigh*

But spring has begun with lots of sunlight, which is good for health I guess. I've been v healthy these days, not to mention mentally too ^_^. A really happy CNY for me, with lots of activities that helped me to enjoy myself so much.


Thanks Shu and Huy for dragging me along on the Pulau Ubin trip on Monday. Spent whole day cycling in the sun, laughed a lot and ... scratched a lot too. Looking for "treasures" inside those abandoned house on the island was not an easy job, sometimes made Shu and me wanna puke :-&. But it was fun, I like the "brain" game the most, in which we won with a great support from something called luck. And travelling on the ferry was just too fantastic for me, as I've always been in love with anything got water involved :p

After a somewhat called long holiday, I'm now having all the energy I need to restart myself ^_^. Gonna be v happy this year, and will try my best in everything I do :p

Wish that all of us would get a good job after graduation, aja aja!!