Blank

The first feeling I have after 30 consecutively hours non-sleep, of which 20 hours was spent inside a 16 degree Celcius room, is I'm now totally broken down, mentally + physically. Just realized I haven't got anything, not water nor food, since 3am in the morning. And now? I hate the idea of stuffing anything inside my mouth, coz' that would for sure make me puke.

Working with flowers is nice, but I totally did overwork myself. I'm so blank all I wanna think about is sleep, jump on bed, and never to wake up again. Technically, never to wake up again....

I just wish I could wipe my brain out, wipe wipe wipe, wipe it all over, and begin with a new blank page.

Valentine, supposed to be some day when I'm so happy for all of my frens, has turned out to be a day when everything in me, my thoughts, my feelings, my health, my brain ... runs dry.

Plz refrain from contacting me thru' my phone, I can hear you but you wont be able to hear me.

And plz let me calm myself down first ...