Tiring time

Sick, then projects, 3212 stuff, then mental break-down, heh it's time for the stressful period of any NUS students during a semester :D. And it has been my cycle since the very first semester here in NUS, NEVER ever has there been an exception :p. Anyway since it's the ... 7th time? I've been getting too used to it ;))

To talk about what has been going on, nothing much, my days are passing by with routine activities of going to school for classes, then go back and work at home. It amazes me somehow I've got used to working in my room, which I've never been able to in the past. The only place that I feel comfortable and concentrated now is my room :D, feel so glad about it :p

Last ... Weds!?, don't really remember, while I was walking ard central lib in a slowly manner coz' not too much energy then, a guy suddenly approached me. Heh kinda that type of cute guy with hair a little bit long but neat. He's holding a bunch of paper on his hands, and ... a pen. So you know, given the fact that I'm not a celebrity whom some stranger may just come up for a signature, it's clear enough that I'm being a prey. For what? Survey certainly!

So being the kind soul I've always been :p, I agreed to fill in his survey. While thinking to myself that this is rather detailed and lots of private info is being asked for, I turned to him and asked back: "What is this survey for!?". He smiled at me, and in a very confident tone, he answered "I don't know what the heck it is about either, I just know that I'm being paid to do it!"

????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!?!?!!

The next thing I found myself doing, is quickly finishing up the survey as I was halfway through already, then gave him back a smile and made my way out, trying to keep my eyeballs from popping out looking at him. Haha so nowadays that's how they do a survey, just find a cute guy/gal, then pay and tell him/her to find anyone who could fill whatever in the paper up. Kinda interesting :p.

My sleeping habit is being mixed up totally, everyday going to bed at around 4 or 5 or even 6am, then wake up at around 8 or 9am. Shhss, I don't want to strain myself that much either, but how to finish this pile of work!?

But then, there would be times like yesterday, I slept for the WHOLE day, and did not do a single bit of work. Sigh, need to really re-adjust everything after next Wednesday!

Talking about sleeping, someone said my sleeping posture is like a fetal, which corresponds to this:

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front. Shy and private, you yearn for security. You take relationships slowly. You need lots of reassurances before you can trust.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Hmm do I!? I thought I always sleep on my back?!?, which on the other hand, corresponds to this:

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are confident and ready to tackle life. You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance. You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines. You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed!

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

"In and out of bed" .... gosh wahahaha!!! Which type of person am I? :p

Hee surprise!

How many of you have come across the same lecturer for more than 1 module in your entire 4 years in NUS?

Me ... none, until now :D

Was walking into ST lecture today to find myself so surprised seeing my ST2334 now taking over the other lecturer's position to teach us ST2132 till the end of this sem. Was like "Waww!!! My most favorite lecturer again!!"

Found it quite interesting to have a chance to attend her lecture again, but also find the idea of taking her final a little bit threatening!

And at the end of e lecture, I stepped out of the LT hearing other frens in class admiring "Oh I like her so much!", "Yes I like her too!".... Smiling to myself, hee I'm the luckiest among you lah, got chances to take her module twice ( .... okie not e same module ya?)

Lately think I've been working more than hard. Really din have time to sleep or to listen to music, sometimes don't have time to eat too. Aiiz that 2261 module is really time-consuming, and bcoz' u're never too stuck, which means u can always go around to kill a bug in ur program, it means it's gonna shack you out until .. never, coz' u'd never run out of ideas how to debug it. And if you happen to go for lunch or for a bath, surely u'll regret as u'll have forgotten where the bug is later...

Anyway, my grpmates are really powerful and devoted, I've never enjoyed working in grp so much like in this group. Everyone's working from dust till dawn without even complaining a little bit. The spirit is really admirable!

Okie gonna submit it very soon, then will have time to devote for the most-frightening killer, game dev ... !!!

How do u know u're still living?

When during your hardest time, your groupmate still look at you and ask: "You look so happy!?"

It means you can manage to fight like hell to make sure u're still alive. Because you are ... and the pain you feel, it's life ...

The confusion and fear, that's there to remind you that somewhere out there, is smt better .... and that smt is worth fight for.

Because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back; so live for today as tomorrow may never come.

And you answer with a smile: "I always look happy what ^_^!"

Ughh! Busy day

I'm glad! I'm busy :D

Yesterday jumped to bed at 10pm, intended to wake up at 1030 as was going to have a meeting with proj mates; and then found myself at awwww when i woke up and looked at the clock: 4am!!!

Can't believe I did not hear any alarm or sms or calling, it's not normal for me to be that dead asleep.

Anyway, decided to go back to bed until 7am :D. Late for meeting already no need to wake up too early, so who cares :D

CS3212 tutorial today is kinda okie, although the concepts are difficult now when it comes to virtual machines, still managed to go through all without much confusion. I've got used to talking for 4 hours consecutively without feeling a pain in my throat, which was impossible for me last year when i was taking it as a student.

The only difficulty is to remember all names of the students in my class. There seems to be more strange faces each week, so can't really recall their names -_-, sometimes mix all up ughh!! But certainly, there are some names which I can't forget *hiak hiak*!!

After tutorial classes, rushed to A*, yayy now I've got a cubical in IHPC, cool huh? Haha yeah I've been extending my "working env" to so many labs that I don't even know the exact number of accessible labs to me now ^_^. My new sup is very cute, very gentle girl; will try to "make use of" her as much as possible. Okie okie "making use" in the sense of trying to learn as much as possible from her alright? Not any evil ideas here!

My projects are nowhere to finish, yet I know if I'm gonna give them my best, I'll get smt out of it. So just do that, give it my best, and get going.

Survival

This is gonna be a long post, so follow up if you have time and are willing to. Many points may not be relevant, but just to remind myself and others if you are in need. And this is taken from somewhere else, not my copyright -_-

Survival is one of the most demanding and challenging issues that we face as humans!

Survival challenges us through many different issues such as: child abuse, sexual abuse, birth, death, job loss, health problems, low self-esteem, relationship ups and downs, parenting, deceptions, breakdowns, poverty, natural disasters, education, addictions and even our own desires to be strong.

Survival comes in little packages and it comes in enormous boxes. It appears when we least expect it, never let us prepare for the battle. It hides around corners, wating to pounce on us. It is constantly testing our inner powers and strengths.

To live is to survive and without survival you have no life. Survival is a choice. If you choose to survive, you must fight hard. If you choose to not survive, you die. Simple!

Survival will change who you are many times. How you deal with your challenge and how drastic the challenge is will determine how much of yourself you manage to keep safe.

A couple of common phrases that we run into many times in our day is "Only the strong survive", and, "What does not kill us will only make us tronger". These are very good survival attitudes to practice. We need to be strong to survive. It takes pure GUTS to survive and move forward in any situation. It takes having total control of your thoughts, which is one of your best weapons in the battle of survival. It demands consistent striving to reach your goals, stopping at nothing to meet your destiny.

I emphasize the importance of strength, when battling the war of survival.

To be strong is:
- to be able to stand your ground and hold onto your inner beliefs, which will be your best strategy to win the game.
- to be born into the survival game without knowledge or understanding of the rules, and still overcome all the obstacles.
- to be able to clean the skeletons out of your closet that have been haunting you from your past.
- to take control of your life and deal with monsters, whether it be through telling a story or confronting the monster face to face.
- to be able to look back at the reasons for your pain and suffering and wave at it as if it were just a car going by.
- to be able to say NO to drugs and misuse of alcohol.
- to be able to forgive, forget, and let the waters flow under the bridge.
- to feel physical pain every minute you are awake, yet be able to smile and ease that pain with positive thoughts.
- to look in the mirror and know you are the best, and to believe who you are.
- to let go of hate and resentment, when your heart has been deceived or broken.
- to push forward when all the negative forces feel like they are pushing you backwards.
- to continue tearing down walls of negative thinking, and replace them with positive openness.
- to open your heart to another after it was forced to close.
- to keep searching for answers to a better you, even when all you want to do is quit.
- to look to tomorrow for the sunshine, when the rain refuses to stop.
- to give birth to a child, and raise him/her with love and respect
- to embrace growing old and never regretting it.
- to study hard and achieve all the knowledge that the world has to offer you.
- to not allow the material world to confuse you as to what is really important in life.
- to be a hugger, not a judger.
- to smile when you want to cry
- to Live, Love and Laugh.

Someone admirable!

There is this guy in SOC whom I've known about not too long ago, around 1 year hmm. Although I'm very clear about what is going on around his life, I believe he doesn't have any vague ideas of my existence until lately.

Haha I guess some of you can easily understand why.

But the more I read about all the things going around him, the more I admire how he organizes his life. And esp. the way he looks at each and every smallest things around him. Like ... birds (wahaha), toilets (sweat), his assignments, his shoes ... Die! I should not expose more haha.

But what I want to say is I really look up to how such a person can make almost everything appear to be so meaningful in life, and live life to the fullest. He pays attention to even the things we normally just throw a glance and dun give a heck about them, or we do but just to laugh off for fun.

Heh is it the effect of participating in many activities, esp. sports? Hmmm recently Bob's asked me if I want to go rock-climbing ..... *sweat from head to toes*. Errr ... it's not that I dun want to do sport okie? sometimes I'm very active too, like kicking someone (which is very sporty right right? need lots of energy). But rock-climbing ... hmmmm ... it sounds so ... alien to a person like me! Thanks for the recommendation Bob, but I need to think about it *rolling eyes*

About *him*, I guess some of u know who i'm talking about already *grin*. Please dun misunderstand! It's not only me who's thinking of going after him *wahaha*. Someone more evil asked me if she should "cu*a" him too haiiizzz...

Relaxing!

Hee although assignments and projects are up to my neck, no... hmmm up to my top, I still managed to enjoy myself with frens these few days. It always feels great to laugh and play play, throwing aside all worries and be as free as birds >:D<

Last Sun dropped by Shu's place, coz' din see her for quite a long time. (Shu see me so sweet? had not met you for only 1 week but missed u already :P). Dragged along my 2 other dearest piggies, and even though it was quite late in the evening, it was really a great time for me.

Happy together ^_^

I?n looks so sweet in this pix =p~ (actually all 3 of us do hi' hi')

For the first time ever, Shu you've won the seesaw game against Pig Ha and I?n :-&. The art of photo-taking *grin*

See the difference btwn this one and the one above? Shu u wanna participate in world athletics competition? I help you register ;;)

Hi' hi' this is the real me, the childish cum kiddie one ^_^

Love this pix man, wahahahaha ...

To come all over the way at the expense of not having dinner, this is what Shu treated us, nice u ah huh!! hmph. Hee but surely it tasted good :">

Shu's place, not bad at all :D. Actually it looks quite warm the house is.

Final words, I love ur smiles so much I could die >:D<. Love ya and hug ya all ^_^

I'm back!

As promised, everything has been settled :P

This is dedicated to you all, intended to record it with my own voice, but afraid I'd spoil the whole thing, so ... enjoy the original :P

Have a great week ahead my frens ^_^



Cuppy cake

You're my Honeybunch, Sugarplum
Pumpy-umpy-umpkin, You're my Sweetie Pie
You're my Cuppycake, Gumdrop
Snoogums-Boogums, You're the Apple of my Eye
And I love you so and I want you to know
That I'll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to you
Because you are so dear